Rainbow Baby Blessing

Click here to read Part One: Fertility, Ovulation, Miscarriage, Oh my!

God’s timing is everything. As you know from part one of my fertility journey, my husband and I experienced a miscarriage in July of 2020. After our miscarriage, we decided to take a break from TTC (trying to conceive) for about 6 months. During that time, I decided to hit the road for an OR travel nursing contract in Maryland. Maryland is my happy place for travel nursing because it’s where I met my husband. I locked in my contract to start the second week of November 2020 and felt so relived to be leaving my permanent job status once again. I chose to end all ties with the hospital I was working with at the time. No PRN, weekends, nothing! Adios peeps! I’m out! The day before my husband and I loaded up our car to hit the road, we finally had our house warming party on Nov 7th. Now, I know we were taking a break from trying, but something spoke to me loud and clear during the house warming to check my LH (luteinizing hormone) levels using the PreMom Ovulation strips. The peak in LH is what signals the release of an egg from one of your ovaries.

I tested twice on Nov. 8th, three times on Nov. 9th, and once on Nov 10th. As you can see in the picture of my tests, there was a significant jump from the 8th to the 9th. When I got a HIGH reading I was shocked, so I tested it again and it was even higher so I knew my LH was going to PEAK soon. I tested later that evening, and there was a drop which means I for sure hit my LH peak on the 9th of November. We made sure all the necessary ingredients and tasks were done before during and after my peak. Literally, seven days later on the 17th, I experienced implantation bleeding/spotting. It was such a very small amount, but that’s the very moment I knew we were pregnant again! I could feel it in my bones, and I was starting to look like a glow worm! I didn’t want to rush to conclusions or take a test too soon, but my thoughts went into overdrive.

Are we really pregnant again? This would happen when I decide to take a travel assignment! Lord please let it stay this time. OMG! God blessed us with a rainbow baby! Lord, please let us meet this blessing you’ve given us. How am I going to tell Rio? How long should I wait to tell him? Lord I just wanna thank you! My thoughts went on and on. My next period was expected on Nov 24th and I told myself that I was going to wait, but the need to know broke me down! Three days after my implantation spotting, on Nov 20th, I took a PreMom pregnancy test and it came back positive!

I was over the moon, but it was still too early to really let excitement set in. I started having flashbacks to the bleeding and pain I felt from my miscarriage. I diagnosed myself with Wipe Anxiety. Every single time I went to the bathroom I was analyzing every inch of the tissue for any early signs of miscarriage. It was great working in a new operating room at the time, because learning their set up and flow helped to keep my thoughts at bay, plus I didn’t know these people from Adam. That made it really easy to keep my business secure. I couldn’t keep the results a secret from my husband for more than 5 days. Seeing his face light up when I delivered the news just melted my heart. We prayed together about all of my anxiety and left it in the Lord’s hands. I had to pray my way back to peace and tranquility. I didn’t want my fears to steal my joy of having my rainbow baby. At our first ultrasound at 8 weeks, we got to see the heart beat. It was so reassuring to see that all was well. Then at 10 weeks I had another scan, because I decided to get the remainder of my OB care in NC. The 10 weeks ultrasound was when it really hit me. There is a little human growing in my womb and he or she already has such personality!

Ultrasound at 10 weeks

My husband and I decided to keep the news under wraps until we made it through our first trimester. After telling our close family and friends, we decided to refrain from any social media posts or big announcements. We just wanted to get through our pregnancy with as little to no complications and see our love in human form first. We feel so honored and blessed to have this second chance at becoming parents, and with the help from our doula and the continued love and support from our family and friends, we are ready to welcome our little princess into this world soon. Yep! We’re having a girl! I’m sharing our story in hopes of encouraging someone else who may be trying to conceive as well. I learned so much from joining fertility communities, and watching TTC (trying to conceive) stories and tip videos on YouTube. It helped me along the way, knowing that I wasn’t alone and that the thoughts and feelings I had were the same for many women all over the world. My journey comes with tears of sorrow and tears of joy and forced me to lean on something much greater than myself.

Up Next – Part III: Labor & Delivery

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I am an 80's baby, child of God, wife, nurse, daughter, friend, and life coach. I am on a mission to live my life with purpose, while helping others do the same. I am passionate about sharing my life, personal growth, wellness progression, and even my most delicate journey of all, fertility. We are all on a journey going somewhere. Where are you going and how can I support you along the way?

2 thoughts on “Rainbow Baby Blessing

  1. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is always good to hear the journey of those who have also gone through similar challenges with bringing a new life into the world.

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